my favourite "what if,"

what i say: i'm fine
what i mean: han says “take off that mask" and kylo ren DOES and you look at him and he’s so YOUNG and you realize that leia must have brought him to senate meetings asleep in a sling against her chest and han must have tossed him into the air and told him definitely exaggerated, questionably child-appropriate stories about his adventures and he probably fell asleep ages 5-12 using chewbacca as a pillow and i bet he annoyed the hell out of c3po and han looks at him now - maybe he tried to think of him as dead, but he can’t, that’s his son, that’s still his SON - and sees his child and because he sees it you see it and HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT just how much leia organa has lost in her life?? she built a new family after her family, her whole planet, was destroyed - only to lose that as well. she built a new republic only to watch everything threatened with destruction all over again. she told han to bring ben home and now han will never come home but she's still standing, still leading, because that's the only thing she knows how to do and now the ot trio will never be reunited and have you thought about how